ange's musings

more and more at the moment i am realising how i can't actually do anything myself, without God i am totally paralysed by fears, desires, being distracted by things i want but that i don't need, and a general dissatsfaction with where i am. trusting god for the day after tomorrow, or more often for tomorrow itself sometimes seems so hard, and worry so easy. why is that? i have been on placement away from bristol monday to friday for just over a month now, and god has shown me his goodness in full measure whilst i have been there. in many ways, it has been one of the best placements i have been on, with friendly staff, good teaching, nice housemates and i have even been touched by grace in the form of a couple of christian docs that i have met - what more could i ask him for? what more could he give me? yet at the moment, i seem to be lacking in gratitude and the adoration i want to be brimming in..... this weekend has made me think about this stuff a bit more, as my phone is pr

enjoying her sound currently, especially after forgetting my laptop in taunton mid-week...how i coped for 5 whole nights without sound waves i don't know.... in fact, right now her "good night and go" is my ring tone - basically because nothing quite met "gymnopedie" by satie which was on my old handset and seemed to be appreciated by all who heard it - for its relaxing sound. there's something obviously slight unusual about having a ring tone, which is not stressful to listen to, i haven't quite found anything to meet Satie, but am enjoying Imogen Heap, and for friend's and family's sake its probably a good change, us i am definitely quicker to answer the phone than i ever was with the slow pace of Satie!!! Whoops!