Seasons come and seasons go

Last week my passport arrived in the post complete with a work visa to be an RMO (resident medical officer in Cantberbury District, Christchurch hospital, NZ). Its an odd feeling when all the prayers you have uttered and asked others to pray for all the little (somewhat trivial in teh grand scheme of life) things have been answered abundantly and graciously, with plenty of tiem to spare before pending deadlines.

Today, I should be at house group but I am exhausted, shattered, so tired I had a long and scary blink on the way home in the car - no idea why I am so tired but think planning for the next few months, the next academic year has resulted in a lack of rest in the present. I have just had a feeling that I need to be constantly seeing friends, saying farewells and making the effort all that bit more. I am already going to be missing 3 weddings (that I know about) during my year working oversease, and a close friend recently got engaged and of course has let me know she has a date set for Aug 7th next year - so of course I have to be back for that and I really want to, but that rather large selfish part of me just wants to not feel like my plans need to suit others. That part of me just wants to come back when I want to come back and I often forget how much I live for me and not for others.

God help me to not abuse the freedom that comes with singleness but instead to honour you and others through the freedom of singleness. Thank you that you provide us with a season for everything.

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