wild and untameable
i realise that this is quite a crazy title for a post but its kinda how i feel i want to be right now or that i actually am deep down somewhere, but i am worried that its long and lost and may be lost forever.
okay, so please excuse the drama for a few more seconds - i promise i am not having a moment. i think i am just having a reaction to the way that society demands for us to do something with our lives that fits into these boundaries of appropriateness and usefulness and whats successful and what's not and frankly its only by grace that i happen to be training to be someone who has good standing in society and an amazing income and all this stuff which i don't think is right that i get, whilst a woman down the road has ended up with a completely different role in society and a corresponding sense of being an outlier/outcast or whatever.....
wild and untameable are adjectives that people in the west just don't want applied to themselves but that is completely what i want to be. and i guess, i am not being fully honest unless i admit that the wildness and untameable-ness (Hey - work with me on the made up words here) is within the boundaries of the kingdom of God - and frankly the God I know can and is sometimes completely wild - look at what he has done, what he is capable of, what he is for, what he will do to win our hearts - in my opinion that is pretty damn wild, and that is where i wanna be at!
that's what i know i am called to, no holds barred discipleship - a phrase a book i am reading uses over and over and over again. i know we can believe we walking the talk in the west, but where are the risks we are taking? our friends in china are dieing, DIEING for their faith in a living, breathing, ALIVE and kicking God and we are runnning the rate race or getting on the property ladder, basically avoiding any of the type of risks I know Jesus is totally about - i hate that and i want none of it and yet i feel like i am being sucked into it and i can't go against the tide.
i guess that is why we need each other too, but we need to recognise that there is a tide and it will drag us with it unless we open our eyes, i'm in love with a wild God who's wild about me and you, and wants us to live wild and radical lives for him - so any idea how i can do this, how we can do this?
okay, so please excuse the drama for a few more seconds - i promise i am not having a moment. i think i am just having a reaction to the way that society demands for us to do something with our lives that fits into these boundaries of appropriateness and usefulness and whats successful and what's not and frankly its only by grace that i happen to be training to be someone who has good standing in society and an amazing income and all this stuff which i don't think is right that i get, whilst a woman down the road has ended up with a completely different role in society and a corresponding sense of being an outlier/outcast or whatever.....
wild and untameable are adjectives that people in the west just don't want applied to themselves but that is completely what i want to be. and i guess, i am not being fully honest unless i admit that the wildness and untameable-ness (Hey - work with me on the made up words here) is within the boundaries of the kingdom of God - and frankly the God I know can and is sometimes completely wild - look at what he has done, what he is capable of, what he is for, what he will do to win our hearts - in my opinion that is pretty damn wild, and that is where i wanna be at!
that's what i know i am called to, no holds barred discipleship - a phrase a book i am reading uses over and over and over again. i know we can believe we walking the talk in the west, but where are the risks we are taking? our friends in china are dieing, DIEING for their faith in a living, breathing, ALIVE and kicking God and we are runnning the rate race or getting on the property ladder, basically avoiding any of the type of risks I know Jesus is totally about - i hate that and i want none of it and yet i feel like i am being sucked into it and i can't go against the tide.
i guess that is why we need each other too, but we need to recognise that there is a tide and it will drag us with it unless we open our eyes, i'm in love with a wild God who's wild about me and you, and wants us to live wild and radical lives for him - so any idea how i can do this, how we can do this?
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