i have to believe

this evening i just had some really sad news from a friend who's had such a hard year that i haven't often known how she's coped. its news that seems unbelievably sad and unbelievably hard, trying to pray for her seems even harder, knowing what to say, knowing that really i can't say anything, i'm lost, confused and know that my only hope for her is found in Him.

this song by rita springer, brings me to my knees, as i think about her.

i have to believe that He sees my darkness.
i have to believe that He knows my pain.
I have to lift up my hands to worship.
Worship His name.
i have to declare that He is my refuge.
i have to deny that i am alone.
i have to lift up my eyes to the mountains.
it's where my help comes from.
He said that He's forever faithful.
He said that He's forever true.
He said that He can move mountains.
And if He can move mountains.
He can move my mountain.
He can move your mountain too.
i have to stand tall when the wind blows me over.
i have to stand strong when i'm weak and afraid.
i have to grab hold, hold of the garments.
garments of praise.
i have to sing praise when the hour is midnight.
He unlocks the chains that bind up my soul.
My sin and my shame, He has forgiven and made me whole.
i have to believe.

liz, may god fill you with his divine hope. here we waste away, one day we will be with him, our tears wiped away.

Comments

Anonymous said…
Thanks for your concern for me Ange, you sweetie.

Everyday even I am like, wow I'm still here, kind of surprised really...it's really teaching me that the strength and power God upholds His children who are struggling with really is not human cos my human strength ran out long long time ago, maybe like day two of the trials and it must be nearing like day 300 now!

Are you still in Bris? I'm kind of back, till sat and after Sat will hopefully decide whether to spend summer in Bris or Lon. Keeping a lowish profile this week as kind of hoping to spend time with God, but if I'm around next week maybe we can meet if you are free.

Lots of love

Liz xx
Tuesday, August 14, 2007 9:39:00 am
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